Not Everyone Likes Chocolate Cake

I’m an acquired taste…and that’s okay

Julie S. Paschold

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Brownie Sundaes….that not everyone likes….and that’s okay. photo by Julie S. Paschold

Not Everyone Likes Chocolate Cake

I’m not everyone’s cup of tea. People have built walls to keep me out. They have discarded me, disposed of my friendship. It hurts, makes me feel ashamed. I have been a people pleaser, have tried in the past to make everyone like me — to act in ways I thought they would approve just to get their acceptance. Eventually though, my mask falls off, and the real me shows through — and they leave. It’s no mistake my song is You’re Gone by Diamond Rio. Eventually, I thought, everyone leaves. Now, I figured I might as well live just as I am — be who I am. Mask off ALL the time.

I’m a complicated mis-wired crazy mess. But I’m me. I once asked my son…if he were a flavor — what flavor would he be? He said he would be a jaw breaker….sweet but tough. Me, I’d be ultra sweet — then suddenly salty or spicy — something that doesn’t seem to belong together — that you have to get used to. An extreme acquired taste. I’m not chocolate cake — most people like chocolate cake (except my sister…see, not everyone likes chocolate cake! A dessert, a celebratory comfort food!).

Just like not everyone is going to like the same food, not everyone is going to like me — and I sometimes forget that is okay. I sometimes still step back into my…

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Julie S. Paschold

Author of poetry book Horizons (Atmosphere Press). Poet & artist in Nebraska, parent, twin, bipolar, sensory sensitivity, synesthesia, PTSD, MS in Agronomy